Brandy DW
Missing Neka, Loving Sabriel, Nakaia, & Trance
Ugh, okay this is just me venting because I need to talk and let my fears, frustrations and sadness out. A year ago today is when I brought Neka to the emergency vet because she had been acting odd for several weeks and the day I brought her in she was open mouth panting but hadn't been moving around. Did an x-ray, fluid in the chest cavity - was initially told fip, ended up being lymphoma. Put her down on Sept 10th, after it likely spread to her brain. --- That's a very quick sum up of what I'm thinking about today, that whole agonizing experience...
But on top of that Sabriel has been acting off for the past week, I had to mix kitty junk food in with her normal meal in order to get her to eat it (fancy feast dry cat food), and since I added that she's been eating her food - which now I only sprinkle the junk food on top. So I wasn't too worried, just thought she might be bored of the usual fare. But then today when I went to feed her, she was sitting in the window ledge and she was making the gulping motions and licking her lips a lot - which I know from Neka is when cats feel nausea. I'm thinking and hoping it's just a hairball because she's already had two this summer - and she is still eating and still active. Although she's been laying down a lot more, usually she's running running running, but she'll lay down for attention now which I kind of like but it's odd behavior wise. I'll just keep an eye out for things because she has had some odd occurrences in the past that ended up being absolutely nothing.
Just right now I'm feeling miserable thinking of last year, and then wondering omg what if it happens again...
For now I gave Sabriel some laxatone (likely misspelled) for the likely hairball... I think I'm just going to lay down and try not to think today, maybe find a movie to watch or a book to read or something to get me to stop thinking...
But on top of that Sabriel has been acting off for the past week, I had to mix kitty junk food in with her normal meal in order to get her to eat it (fancy feast dry cat food), and since I added that she's been eating her food - which now I only sprinkle the junk food on top. So I wasn't too worried, just thought she might be bored of the usual fare. But then today when I went to feed her, she was sitting in the window ledge and she was making the gulping motions and licking her lips a lot - which I know from Neka is when cats feel nausea. I'm thinking and hoping it's just a hairball because she's already had two this summer - and she is still eating and still active. Although she's been laying down a lot more, usually she's running running running, but she'll lay down for attention now which I kind of like but it's odd behavior wise. I'll just keep an eye out for things because she has had some odd occurrences in the past that ended up being absolutely nothing.
Just right now I'm feeling miserable thinking of last year, and then wondering omg what if it happens again...
For now I gave Sabriel some laxatone (likely misspelled) for the likely hairball... I think I'm just going to lay down and try not to think today, maybe find a movie to watch or a book to read or something to get me to stop thinking...
