awwww that's a heartbreaking story :'( I'm sorry that happened to you guys. Both the breeder and you must have been really upset. But like you said, at least you didn't go and meet the kitties and become emotionally attached yet. Personally, I'd go see the F4's. If you fall in love with one, then great, maybe that one picks you as an owner. But if you just think they're really cute but they don't really "speak to you", then wait for the F3's to be born and see what comes of them. Afterall, you know what kind of markings you'd like, size potential and personality traits you hope to be passed down from the parents. I think when you find the right one, you'll just know. You have the advantage of being able to meet them in person. I found mine (should be arriving in a week or so) through painstaking hours and late nights going through websites and clicking and looking at "Available Kittens" and emailing breeders to send me pix over and over. I finally found one that I just felt captivated by. It had all the traits I was looking for, besides just cute pictures. I dunno, something in it just looked like he was the kitty for me. So I went with it. Good luck on your search, I'm sure it'll be fun and fruitful!